Weight Battle

I want to share with you a struggle I have been dealing with for over 7 years.  When my first daughter Miss V was born I dealt with extreme sugar cravings, weight gain, postpartum depression and a feeling of isolation. I dealt with it all, but I wasn't a happy person.   I lacked self confidence and a feeling of self worth.  Fast forward 4 years and baby number 2  Miss T came along.  After she was born I had gone from a tiny little thing of 115 pounds to at total of 170 pounds!  Still dealing with all of the things I had mentioned above.  Then a few months after her birth I knew I had to do something for me!  I needed to get out of my slump and start feeling alive again.  I found a program call Focus T25 and Shakeology and managed to go from 170 pounds to 140 pounds and feeling amazing!  So amazing in fact that we had an unexpected surprise.....in October 2013 we found out we were pregnant again with number 3.
     This sent me into a tail spin.  I was angry depressed overwhelmed.  And where did I go for comfort?  Shit food!  And to top it all off I had to quit exercising because I was high risk.  So once again I was over 170 pounds and miserable.  I was smart enough to talk to my Dr this time around.  We started to treat my depression right away.  This helped but it still took me a few months to get over how angery I was over this pregnancy!  Then I was happy with the fact we were going to finally get our baby boy!  BUT in my last 3 months I was told not to do a thing or they would put me on bed rest.  I was angry again, I really have a hard time asking for help or needing to rely on others when I was damn well capable of doingn it myself!
    Little Man was due in August but we ended up delivering July 7.   A week after he was born I was back in the hospital with a uterus infection.  Heres me needing to rely on others again!  But I handled it better this time around.  Okay I lost a bunch of weight in the hospital and when I went home I was feeling pretty good about myself.  Geuss what?  The weight came back!  Now its September and I am at 180 pounds.
  I went back to Beach Body and ordered 21 Day Fix.  Got results!  Then I did T25 Beta and got more results.  But something was missing.  I needed to work on my nutrition.  So thats what I have been working on since January.   Now I am ready to do Insanity Max 30!

Before September 2014

Current Feb 1 2015  pic on the left in black In Grey January 1/15

I have a free clean eating group starting Feb 23 2015, if anyone would like to join.  Leave me a comment with your email and I will contact you soon.  

Body Mind and Soul

Sarah